Coffee Preparations.

So Lately I have ben coming down to a coffee shop in western Sugarhouse called Alchemy Coffee. This coffee shop is by far my favorite shop/tasting coffee in the state of utah. 8 A.M. 7 P.M. or now at 3 P.M. it doesn't matter. I have been sitting at the same red linoleum table in the same turquoise type paint wall corner for the past couple weeks.

During these few cups of coffee on each excursion I have been Listening to sermons by Mark Driscoll, Listening to my random music style, and reading books ranging from political christianity to zombie survival guides.

Through all the things I have been hearing go into my ears or being sent through my eyes by reading. I have been feeling happier about where I am in life and what I am about to do in less than 2 months now. You see I have been seeing this girl for the past 7 months. Her name is Lauren Beatty!!! She has somehow decided I am worth anything making my self esteem get boosted ten fold. She has made me laugh and smile more in this time than the first 17 years of my life, and she has shown me love by showing me forgiveness for all the mistakes I have made. I am eternally grateful to god for providing this amazing beautiful woman to me to help me more fully understand him.

You see as I have mentioned I will be leaving on may 29th and driving across the country to missouri and more specifically kansas city. Now before her I would be doing this without anything stopping me and I am still going to go now. However I will be leaving her here in Utah. Now we both have webcams and we have texting and phones and we can even write letters to each other. Now knowing that I won't be able to hold her hand or keep her warm when it's cold outside is the thing I am fearing leaving.

Now I said above I have been happier about what is about to happen to me. This is because through my time here in utah in salt lake in sugarhouse in alchemy in the word of god I have realized again why I am going and that is to get the biblical study and understanding I am missing in my life to be able to do the thing that I most want to do in the world which is help people see, know, and try to understand even the smallest part of the infinite god that I know. Now I by no means think I will be coming back full of knowledge that no one knows or even knowledge where I wouldn't need to ever study again. No I will need to study listen and soak in everything I get and present that info to god and figure out what he accepts as true knowledge. But hopefully I will start to know enough whereas I will be humbled enough to experience making my earning in the gospel.

Until next time I remain in a misery smile about my time in missouri.